i am going to take a break from Olokun blogging.

surely that's not the answer right? imagination is the only way.  and right now i've got to find a way back to mine.

until next time...take care of yourselves and your families.

Honestly, I know things change and such but I get really lonely.

I hate to admit that I am resisting what is, but sometimes it gets really lonely.

In this moment:

I miss my daughter and taking care of her.

I miss Gray. I miss calling him when I want to and going out with him to nice places. I miss laughing and cuddling and just plain being around him.

I wish I didn't but I do. I thought I had gotten used to it, but I haven't. People need people. How does one get used to being alone? You can only enjoy your own company so much. I am so happy my daughter is coming home next week. I will have someone to talk to, take care of, and look forward to coming home to. I miss her so much.

I miss him so much.  

I've really got to use my imagination

To think of good reasons

To keep on keepin' on

Got to make the best of a bad situation

 Ever since that day I woke up and found

That you were gone

 Darkness all around me

Blackin out the sun

Old friends call me

But I just dont feel like talkin to anyone

Emptiness has found me

 And it just wont let me go I go right on livin'

 But why I just don't know

Staring down reality

Dont do me no good

 'Cause our misunderstanding

Is too well understood

Such a sad, sad season

When a good love dies.

Not a day goes by

When I dont realize

I've really got to use my imagination

To think of good reasons

To keep on keepin' on

Got to make the best of a bad situation

 Ever since that day I woke up and found

That you were gone

...this too shall pass